Relying On A Higher Power
Many outsiders may not believe it, but 12 Step recovery is not a religious program. Even if it appears to be dogmatic at times, there isn’t a monotheistic requirement. We can all believe in whatever we’d like, draw strength from whatever we perceive is greater than ourselves. Sure, many in the fellowship rely on the old standards, such as Jesus or Yahweh. Yet, there is no requirement to do so. The program only asks that you do not fool yourself into thinking you’re a God.
When you decided to reach for recovery it is likely that you were feeling defeated. The drugs and alcohol had done enough damage to bring you to your knees and ask for help. The fellowship was waiting for you, but it asks that you admit to yourself that you were powerless over substances. The unmanageability of your life prevented you from moving forward on your own. You needed help. Realizing that you were incapable of living life on life’s terms, you entertained the idea that something greater could guide you back to sanity. You may not know what that “something” is quite yet, but in time all will reveal itself. All that is truly required early on is belief. Ever reminding yourself that, ‘I can’t. It can. Let It.’ Or, in another sense: Let Go. When you utter such words, you are relinquishing your illusions of control. Opening up yourself to something greater.
For some, however, you may not be at a point yet to fully understand the implications of a higher power. A power that can bubble inside you when in recognition for something greater. But, with each day that passes, the mind becomes a little more clearer. Allowing one’s heart to open up to outside forces wholly beyond your control. In many cases you don’t find your higher power, it finds you. Often when you least expect it.